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Wednesday, November 28, 2012

Sun Searing ....


copyright Barbara Smith
The sun fiercely beats a summer path ....
I have moved not quite a month yet
and
Summer is here & hot..
I lay in bed last night with just the excessive heat for company...
Cursing that I could not turn on the tap high up on the wall to add water to the evaporative cooling system perched on the roof...

Add some unkind, untrue words spoken to me...
and
I was thinking...
I was thinking of the beach... where if chance has it a cool breeze cools the soul..
I was thinking of a friend who is buying a van to fit out & take off for jaunts...
Another friend has been on this sort of journey for some time now..
Tassie is in the aim of another friend's move
tropics to a cool season or 2...
and I had begun to read a book
on exactly this type of topic...
From a life so far removed...from what was their traditional career & life style...
to a style of life which is envious of many...
the freedom it brings...
the challenges...
thechanges..

Tuesday, November 27, 2012

Wheat ...coming in

This has been the second time this season I have driven through the wheat harvest...
the first time I was driving into Bendigo..
a wind had risen
and a haze had formed in one area..as the wheat was cut.
I was driving with windows down..
enjoying the breeze..
when suddenly I was confronted by
wheat harvesting in many directions...
I quickly put windows up & air conditioner on...
thankful I had water & cough lollies...
as wheat & I are not very compatable....
Flour dust off a loaf of bread ..I feel the airways constrict..
I thought suddenly as I drove with a focus to move on out of this bit...
for me this could be a death road..
I don't know if my airways would go the full monty
&
many Drs just look at you as if....well she must be exaggerating.
Hey I went for advice & short of keeping out of the stuff ...in anyway..
I do manage it well.
But in recent few years there are times ....
one isin remote spots... sitting through a little episode of minor shock..
when that happens there is no panic
and
i did wonder about that..but figure the body has started to go into shock..
Odd..but I digress.

I have had a few moments in recent days that just reduce me to despair...
NOT being BELIEVED is one of those moments...
Being raised with still the Irsih Quaker great grandmother's teachings passed on through my father's line...
telling any fibs were not tolerated..
so I don't, it is kind of hard to even think that way.
Twice I have been accused of basically telling a porky...
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of course the other flip of that is being told a porky.... or a fluffed up version of truth...
both undermine intelligence.
Funny that isn't it....
some think it is just fine to nip stuff, readjust & reclaim...
others blatantly say you must have done xyz... well NO...
But ??????
So today I am rather annoyed & disturbed & once more I need to shift my feet about to gather some balance again..
Speaking of feet reminds me that I drink bottled water & feet have swollen a few times but not on other times... check the salt content in a lot of bottled water...
I was amazed
  
 

Thursday, November 22, 2012

Yesterday I encountered a COW

Ahh the country life....
I nipped out to a friend's farm house to drop something back to her...
I said my farewells...
and drove along the house lane
Gate was shut...
Been a while since this I have seen this...
out of car,
open gate,
go through,
shut gate.

I see farmer's son on quad bike with a contrary cow on the first bridge....on the lane...
she is going this way,then that way ...
having a right tantrum !!! 
He gets cow sorted ... 
( a gorgeous black & white lady )
She is wandering and looking at me etc...as she draws nearer
 &
 I am thinking these girls are bigger than my car,
What should I do ???
where is she supposed to be going????
is she so cranky now she'll kick the car or rock it as she meanders about  ??? 
Is she scared of me...
I drive away from where I think she is going...
I go towards the into the outsheds 
I sit in my car & she stands..
 for a while staring at each other..
&
I am wondering where the farmer has gone to....????
as I had seen a herd of cows in what I thought was the dairy paddock
Then I spot in the distance half the herd were being driven up & we would all soon be eye to eye...
I was becoming a little panicked !!!
Then the cow in front of me kind of looked at where she was supposed to go, 
gave me a knowing look
&
sauntered off
&
I was in gear off over the bridge
&
down the lane before rest of the herd got anywhere near where I was going.
I love to look at cows
From a distance where a fence is between us

Saturday, November 17, 2012

The Claiming of a Home

Slowly the objects that I love are assembled in rooms...
where ..how will they fit ???
I never quiet know until things appear from cartons..
&
 I greet them with fondness....
It's a kind of settling feeling


There are no hooks to be placed in the walls..
so my creativity is challenged.
My brother suggested I look  for an old artist easel for the clock...
I think that will be perfect ....! 
A mirror that once hung on a wall in my last home ..
reflects lovely light from it's position at floor level...
An unused fireplace in summer is already cluttered for sorting.
A cane basket is position on a striped mat to hold a host of magazines !
And the rug is tossed for another thought...
A clock to see the time... as I live in the living space..
Roses from the garden...
pruning the errant shoots of original stock...
the garlic my brother brought over on a visit from his garden...
It's all what makes a country home...
Blackbirds sing & frolic close to the windows
that feels they are glad someone has come to stay...
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Friends and concerned relatives ask...
is this a place you will setttle...
I cannot answer that...
I have just moved back...
but for the moment it is home...

Thursday, November 15, 2012

Cherry Farm nearby !!!

There is a cherry farm close by....to where I am now living.
A lovely friend gave me a bag...of these fresh cherries...
I LOVE CHERRIES
&
this heart plate
 suits them !!!

Monday, November 5, 2012

companion silence

copyright Barbara Smith
Working in unison, these gorgeous seaside birds... were always a pleasure to find on my beach walks....
to observe them without scaring them was always my aim.

I will move inland again...no seaside at my door anymore..
but there are other waters and birds to observe as I begin walks along the creek again.

Saturday I moved some belongings ( we'll call them that ) into my new home...
with the help of my brother...
and the family who own the house, also arrived to complete some jobs...

The house is light & airy & there was a harmony to the way 5 of us moved about doing what we were doing.
Not really knowing each other that well...

A brilliant beginning.!!!


Then as an added bonus a cousin had arrived from western Qld & we got to spend about 2 hours together...
I reflected later that we women along the blood line have a strength...
it is ???
maybe it is our interest in life & how we have challenged ourselves in very different ways.
But it was very very nice to connect....
I got that lovely sense of self again when being with kin... which was something I grew up with limited amounts of...
and so I return home...

When I departed Canberra just 6 weeks over 10 years ago ..
I had definite thoughts on how I would live & be & feel in an authentic sense.
But , I laugh , it was not that at all...
Now as I have meandered a bit in the 10 years I develop a block of not really dwellingin the new life ..
Now this time I arrive & will see what each days does bring..
Always , it is exciting for me...

I mentioned to a friend just the other week, this was not the life I had envisaged for me when I left Canberra,
I don't in many ways recognise the person I was....
However..
It is me & it is I think the woman I set out to become those many many years ago..
and for me that is so exciting !