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Monday, December 31, 2012

REFLECTION for theYear to come....



VISUAL JOURNAL
I am always excited as the year is closing & the next is about to unfold....

Often I collect & cull in the holiday season & this year that trend has continued.
Magazines of a long standing were scrutinised and many have gone to another pile with bits cut out or a page missing...

The cuttings of words like "Feed the Soul " become part of a bigger story...for me
A photograph of a room or a scene just takes me there with such longing.. 
****
I review the original journal made about 10 years ago
&
I took to updating a little a few years ago....

I
Threaten to make a new journal...
a new start...
but when I puruse the pages of the original I find it is all that I still love......
might add a little...

I need to focus more on that part of my life...as each page represents me
&
what I want in my life ....

But overall it may not make a logical sense ....
But
I think it is the things I am not so confident to ask out loud for !


Many of you are aware that  I do travel a bit.....
nomadic springs to mind...
I move because I can
&
so I do....
However,
 I am looking at what I gain from that
&
what is within me that needs a quiten soul....
as I write this I am not so sure that is all.
I have got used to exploring.....
to feeding my soul
 and  
 promising myself this season the book will emerge straight from within....
Watch this space !!!

Tuesday, December 18, 2012

Christmas Memories

This morning I was thinking of Christmases gone past...
when I was much younger...
and was marvelling at the times my mother
Knitted a beautiful pink layette for my doll..
she was not a finisher of knitting..
But this was...
all in beautiful patterns ...
Another time it was the Bride Doll with her sateen cream dress, lace & a net veil..
Mum was no sewer but she excelled at th eChristmas times...

Other times she would be found trying to match up to "Mother's" boiled fruit cake that my Father's mother always baked the best...
( How defeating that must have been ...I learnt from that & don't try ! )
or
Making relish, chutney & tomatoe sauce
by the HOT wood stove in a 30 degree day..
.....
I then decided to pick some flowers & go visit both my parents in their lawn plot..
I don't do this often because for me
they hang about where ever I am...
Anyway I got out of car with my little bouquet of flowers..
when the hearst drives in from the main drive and was going to perform a Garveside service just where I would walk.
So best intentions...
I took the flowers home ..
& today I admire them & give thoughts of my christmas as a child...



where much of my christmas decorating springs from..
paper chains, tinsel.... some paper lanterns ..and that stocking filled with stuff behind red netting...
Food never played a large part in my Christmas
as I was a natural vegetarian in the wrong era !!!!
Chicken stinks to me ...
so it was something I sat through...

And it was always HOT....
I adored the wait for Santa & that still sets my heart beating now...
MERRY CHRISTMAS  !!!!!



Friday, December 7, 2012

There are times to.....

This house I have arrived in gives up more surprises each week...
The latest being front door jammed yesterday..
arriving home from a 3 day trip and a long drive
I was keen to unpack the car 
&
have a nice cup of tea..
Turn key with hand full of bags...
nothing.
Put bags down to use 2 hands...
nothing.
Try again ...
and again .......
you can guess the rest.
It will not open...
****
Back door,
will this solo key fit both doors..
through the gate ...
& around I go full of hope...
Key doesn't fit...
***
My mind is begining to find solutions....
I have a key to neighbours house to feed dog..
NO key is in house....
****
In country places there are never locksmiths..

I then thought where can I drive to..
oh but the dog & magpie..to care for
***
I had one last try at door
and as if it was all in my imagination
It opened...
****
All's well now I am inside!!!!
Except
the toilet needs to be once more jiggled to get a flushing going..
and I do not have that resilience in me just then,
....
When a lovely elderly neighbour calls out & I say...
come in & have a cup of tea with me...
I need the tea & the company.....
****

Late in the evening I have closed the door....
then
went to explore something hitting the security screen
...
Door will not open from the inside either....
I tried & tried... did some WD44
so locked in...!!!!
I had been given a spare set of keys the other day..
  & I am wondering
if a back door key is on it & works..it does..
( funny in my mind before I left on Wednesday several times I thought should I put that spare set of keys in my purse)
*****
I decide to go to bed,
as I am fatigued now not just tired !!!
Reading to settle me down when ...
A wind springs up
&
that reveals I have not bolted the tin gate shut..
Bang...bang... etc.
I decide to ignore it !!!
Eventually I did...
***
I find this morning the door eventually gives in & opens..
I see the soaker hose has been considerately turned on ....
The thrills of small minds late at night...
if that is what drugs do for you... what is the point ???
and
 I bolt gate ...
I walk across the dry back lawn
feeling very beaten,
desolute
 and
having to yet deal with stuff I would just rather not...
but I will I guess
****
after the dream I had ...
maybe not


Saturday, December 1, 2012

Working Dog

Yesterday in Ingelwood amid the festivities of the town,
life went on for the people who popped into the supremarket....
where this dog waited quitely.


He looked as if he was enjoying a break from his day's work....
it is sheep & wheat country mostly... & the dog's coat was dusty & he had the look of a working dog....
not the pampered variety about in his breed today ...
They are fantastic working dogs...


If on a country road I am delayed by a flock of sheep
being moved along a road..
If there is a dog working the flock..
I always feel it is a special treat to watch while I wait...
Time never spent cursing.....  


I stopped to ask this dog if he'd mind his photo being taken...
"Wel....l if he must is the look... but silently proud 
That was a special moment too !