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Saturday, March 30, 2013

Sunlight Played

Today as I took photos of design things..
the pattern of the lace curtains played in the morning sunlight
on the floor...
I love those reflections of light..
and also
the reflections of LIFE....


Reflecting on Life
This afternoon I am reading the working book from Kelly Rae ...
as I read I work through the small exercises
with the 
Big meanings.
Today I was up to the pages containing 
Facing Your Fears...
The she asked the question
What would you do if you knew you wouldn't fail.....?????
To write the core fears about oneself
Those unspoken things...
to commit to paper..
oh lordly is a fear itself !
But I have written them down now...
So watch 
I may just become bolder...
alter the directions of life...
who knows....
I am sure I do not 
but I want to continue to work on this...
It for me has meaning...
a promise of liberation...
the Seize the day style of out there stuff...

****
Over the past 10 years I have challenged a lot of my original fear bases..
and now they do not exist for me...
As I moved forward at that time &
 through the years since...
I would just do it...
&
I learnt to live with more passion for what I wanted....
Until I turn around and wonder who I have become...
Which says I still sit right in the middle of the fence 
I can jump back 
or 
jump up towards
yet a dear friend 
whose opinions I do value
said only a matter of weeks ago
" You are an extraordinary woman
who has achieved so much for yourself
and who has made such a life for yourself"

You know I glowed inwardly...
I thought...
it shows ????
Must go exercise some more.

Thursday, March 28, 2013

I am reminded

 
 
Bliss
 
I am not that ready to be covered in mud these days...
Not much has changed I suppose  
 
Finding bliss in the ordinary....
 
Today I still find bliss in the smaller things...
Bliss is....
. I adore the blue wren family who are so happy eating insects in my lawn..
& they are quite bold... it's always fun..
. Yesterday I was unpegging the clothes & a sweet little silver eyed honey eater came so close... it knew I was there..
the mate was above in the tree chirping chirping alarm...
Somehow the animals just know...their trust is what I adore as well.
 
 
.I watched the kangaroo man story made by UK about a man who rescues & saves tiny baby roos... if their mother's have been killed.
As I lived across the road from a mob...that I used to observe as I peeled the veges for dinner or washed dishes...
I saw them in a natural state & was charmed by them...
so learning some of the observations from this show is just nice.
I have realised in later years while living close to mobs in NSW & Victoria we know so little about what we symbolise.
I felt it was a special time to have them as my neighbours.
 
. the geraniums & roses in this garden that have come back to a full happy plants
and the small self seeded gun tree in a pot ficia folia si a big gum nut gum...
little treasures.
. seeing a friend in the distance & a warm smile breaks over my face
. a magazine that has much to admire in the creativity...
 
Just small things....
a hug
a smile
a laugh
a tear... if it's  a sad thing.
 

Tuesday, March 26, 2013

Next Best thing to beach on a hot day

The heat arrived early today...
Much to my disgust.
So I was taking some photos of work things..
but thought
I could not resist some more of a cooler picture..

There is many a thing I want to do today 
&
I am rather mindful that IF I don't get into some sort of rhythm soon 
I will squander the day away...

*****

Monday, March 25, 2013

I pull the blinds...


I pull the blinds way too early...
The sun has heat in it again...
I am so impatient for the summer to be gone
The washing machine has beeped 
that it is ready to hang it's load in 
this hot sun...
But, I am not hurrying 
as it will be dry quickly enough...
***
These roses are sheltering away from the 
window sill in the bathroom
and
are such a magnificent sight...
The bushes flower & flower...


 I could not resist a little styling with objects in the bathroom..
the bird & shell of course bring me memories of a beach...
Of strolling along the sand 
( when the sun is softer )
It is perhaps a soft thought we have of being by the sea...
although my days on the sands at Long Beach were very beautiful & for me always interesting..
going further in where all the bright boats with sails & ropes were moored was again some sight to behold in one's soul
My thoughts scatter .... 
but not so they 
cannot be harnessed
during my Easter time.... 


I have a working book to continue to 
read & answer questions 
It is by Kelly Rae and her thinking style & tips and ? whatever artistic people think...
She uses the most happy colours in her works, her website & news letters....
young & fresh.


This morning I did take a SLOW breakfast 

as I settled into my day

I read 2 articles on Mindfulness
in different country's magazines
but I note promoting the same book.
That could be mindful in my observation...
being aware.


All food for the thinking...
making sense of the journey that is always on going..
The more I do journey 
the more the acceptance of distance from dear friends lessens..
It has brought me comfort 
and 
also 
I collect new friends each time I wander off
****
I think the friends topic needs some more talking over...
But... I am writing a book...
well it stops

takes a while to start !!!!

I have a thousand topics
so much to say...
but 
would prefer short chats...
***
Yes I shall write more on my book...
it is time...
I have the hardest bit mapped on paper..
so really I think I will just chat now..
on things like our journeys...
 the friends...
the ????
Ciao 


Friday, March 22, 2013

From the Beach

The beach can give up some fantastic surprises...
This was a patch at Rosebud beach...which took my fancy.
*
Autumn is slowly making it's way into my life again
but
Summer is slow to shift out of the way....
*
The dark stays longer, 
which means I need to adjust my wanderings to the light hours....
& they will be shorter to.
*
Adjusting is such a journey within it's self...
No one is really immune to adjusting
although some make a steadfast hold 
never to change any part of their life...
***
I feel I have a little right to speak that,
as I once was one white knuckling onto my lifestyle.
***
Now I do appreciate some normal routine...
but
do I get restless...
***
For my soul 
I seem to become stale in my outlook etc etc
if I stay too comfortable...
***
When all the lights are on 
I have lots of adjustments to make
The days are full of 
excitement, 
good, 
bad, 
indifferent
boring 
***
Sadness can sneak in to be your friend for a day...
I am caught by this...
as usually I have an even set of feelings these days
but 
huge adjusting does bring all the emotions to the surface..
***
Then, it is also a time to shift sideways just a little, 
tilt one's head on the side
 & 
have a think with a different view...
***
Other times it is giving permission to just have a day 
for oneself...
to potter about
collecting oneself...
you know the tatty bits..
the threads that are loose ends...
***
To not let other's opinions of what you are doing 
where you are heading 
interrupt 
the pathway...
***
It's a journey...
and 
we all take it on our own...
sometimes with lots of company & laughter...
other times with a single dear friend...
sometimes an animal crosses your path...
and other times there is 
Just you.
***
Enjoy your journey today....
I wonder how that will be for each of you who call by....

Saturday, March 9, 2013

These flat dry & hot drives back....


A trip to town for an appointment & some supplies 
The hot 
dry 
flat 
hot
 dry
 boring
 drive back
Thank goodness for Fleetwood Mac !!!
I sing at the very top of my voice 
& I enjoy that part of the drive...
it is a good feeling..
I kind of thrived & survived on all that fantastic music in 60's +++
The heatwave continues to belt us about ...
and even the beach this week is showing up as HOT...
+++++
I had a lovely feel good experience in Bendigo when I happened across a woman about 20 struggling with a small suitcase & a cat carry cage.
I identified with that 
& it was just after 1pm.
I pulled up ( No I don't make a habit of this but maybe I have been placed in paths where I am tested.)
She accepted a lift the short drive up the next street
As she was thanking me & i was glowing with pleasure she said I was most welcome to come in for a cup of tea.
I declined the kind gesture ..touching 2 gorgeous kittys in the cage was my reward.
As I drove away she was standing there waving me goodbye.
It felt so good to have helped with her day & she was so appreciative ...it was a real thrill for me also.
Lucky...I think I am a lot of the times. 

Wednesday, March 6, 2013

I Wanted to be Reminded what it feels Like !

I want to be reminded what autumn feels like... 
it is very hot again ...
I think I need to weave my way 
to the beaches of last week again !

This is a rest time ..
Finally I have begun to cull my wardrobe.
I could not locate a thing 
a huge stack of "things" on the top shelf 
could have been anything !
I have a few small piles on the bed now...
.autumn wear
.rest of hot weather wear
.winter wear.
.scarves
one pile on the floor I call
.toss out..
I think that is some way to progress...

There is a sort of resistance now to just get in there & finish it...
but might need a cup of tea...
too hot....
all matter of reasons why not...



Friday, March 1, 2013

Beaches I walked on last week


I have just returned from visits to beaches for a few days...
Catching up with friends ...
Driving long stretches to be met by happy faces & huge hugs
It was such a lovely few days..
 The beach & the sea air rejuvenates me ...
&
the 
weather cooled 
rain fell
 being with lovely dear friends 
who have known me for an age or few...
is always 
enriching