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Friday, October 30, 2015

to pick wild flowers


This is a freehand painted piece.... that I did some time back now.
It captured my sense of how I am just at the moment..
That need to switch down 
stroll in a field full of wild flowers
Well In Australia that would also mean snakes at this time of year...
 not such a smart idea.

So the days are ticking off,
many things are being juggled into the air...
I have this surreal feel now...one does as I sit in that holding pattern.
Years ago it felt as if I was outside my skin... as I waited for the moving day...

But other things now get in the way of it feeling that same excitement....is lost in the debris
I will make the most of it...
and it will come back...
the worry of where all the balls needs to land is holding me tight..

I wait for more news of my favourite aunt...
who through much of my life she had been my rock.
Always praising me, worrying about me & taking me in to recover after my car accident many years ago... rescuing me ... listening to me... always asking what I was doing...
I laughed so much in that month I stayed after the car accident  that I felt I'd burst the stitches under my chin...
Wow
 I look back & what a place to recover  from a face full of cuts..
I grew into those scars because of how this was dealt with...by my aunt & uncle.

Now she isn't so good....and one does prepare for the final farewell...
Days must be well lived..
not always done when we slip into zones of worrying about the stupid small pieces 
forget there is a very nice larger picture out there....
So how does one paint that bigger picture ?

That brought me to mind of Vision boards....
so I will leave it there 
I need to walk & ponder... 



Sunday, October 25, 2015

My Latest New Friend

Not long after I moved in I had a visitor...
A large currawong that was obviously used to the people factor..
I think the previous people had a dog & that equates to dog food...
Anyway the bird appeared every second day at first & as it was spring I assumed it had nesting duties the other day.
Now he can show up when I do...
I give him blue berries.

Quite interesting up close ... as it catches the berries first up as I toss them.  Stores one in that long beak & looks at me to toss another & sure enough shows off buy putting that one along side the other berry in it's beak.
Quite a show off too.
It now will talk to me in a low... noise ... because I chatter to it...
Sometimes the head goes on the side as it listens to me whistle or sing... 

    

It is not very fearful is it ?



Saturday, October 17, 2015

On My walk

On my morning walk....
I pass some trees that strike a little reminder of Christmas for me...
this one with it's sparsely placed red berries is one of them.
Today I took the camera...
the casurina cones 
are not easy to photograph ...
not as seductive
but 
they are pine like
I listen to my inner eye as I observe things when I walk etc... & for these it is also the way they hang in the tree..
To someday draw on it when a pencil & paper are in my "control"

Yesterday I regret not having my camera when I pulled into an interesting spot for a cafe to meet a friend for lunch..
there were several beautiful crab apple blossoms right where I had parked...
I was seeing photos close ups...

Lunch & conversation soon overtook that regret.

I am disciplining myself to walk each day 
& get a little action into the stride...
so much so I find I just want to walk ..
Been a long time since I have done this & been able to head out the door to find a good surface to stride on without the car ride first...


Friday, October 2, 2015

Freesias

Freesias sitting on my window sill.... found peeking out from some abundance of periwinkle vine things
I have been enjoying their most of the week...

Waiting for my cousin to arrive today, she is travelling back to her home & staying overnight...
We have this thread of genetics .... we laugh at some things spontaneously together...
I never met her until maybe 8 years ago.... my brother & I felt we'd known her all our lives.

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Then  one of my oldest friends will be travelling up too & after that I have some needs 
that see me heading back to Victoria....
So I will once more be heaving this heavy load down south again LOL
I have looked at this short re life back in Canberra as extremely positive in so many ways..
For one I have renewed myself, recharged batteries ....feel light.
It has been so gorgeous to sit & chat face to face with many friends 
in my house or theirs or at a club or cafe....
I have explored .... 
now it is cartons & tape again....  
But for the best.... 
I will miss the bird..... the freesias....& the ease to go walking...
I am losing weight so another plus